So I just finished my last exam last night. I hate studying for the last exam, because by then, I'm usually so mentally drained that I have no motivation left to drag myself to the desk and force my dead brain to memorize anything. This time was no exception. Lol, even though I had a good six days to study, I didn't start studying until the day before, which is really quite sad, considering it was a full year cumulative exam. Well, I know I passed, it's physiology, which I have taken before (couldn't get it exempted because I didn't have a lab component though >.<) and it was multiple choice. Right now, I don't care about grade, as long as I pass, I'm happy. It's really quite pathetic how low my standards have dropped since I started pharmacy ^^;

I was talking to my friend (her sister is my classmate), apparently there were FOUR summer supplemental exams for Medicinal Chemistry last year because half the class didn't pass! It took four tries to pass all the students; some people had to study for that exam FIVE times! During summer too! I almost had a heart attack. I knew there was a supplemental exam for that course, I mean we had 7 booklets and 1 scantron to answer in 3 hours. No one I spoke to finished the exam (myself included), and the notes for one of the professors who taught the course were around 250 pages (he only taught about one month too). After I told my parents this, my dad suddenly concluded that I must've failed the test too, so he's constantly teasing me about when I have to go back for the supplemental. I'm going to seriously consider suicide if I have to study med chem ever again in my life. I mean come on, when you think about it, no one is going to go into a pharmacy and ask the pharmacists about what a GPCR is or for the pharmacist to interpret dose-respose curve and derive a mathematical model for a certain drug receptor interaction -_-;;

Seriously though, in the past three weeks, the night before each exam, I would lay in bed, and just think, instead of going through the trouble of school and exams myself, maybe I should just marry someone rich like a lawyer or doctor XP I wouldn't mind being a 'kept' or 'trophy' wife. Lol, but then again, I have too much self-respect and pride to stay at home and look pretty. Not that I don't like looking pretty, and I certainlly won't mind expensive gifts XP Like a certain $400 LV sunglasses I really want, and a new laptop. I hate LV bags, have never been a fan of logo products, but I really like their shoes, accessories, and sunglasses. Guess it's a good thing that I got a new full time job this summer. It's going to be busy vacation, juggling three jobs, hopefully there'll be time to write. It's too bad that whatever I make this summer will have to go to tuition, my dad told me that I'll have to pay the full tuition for next year, but he took pity on me so I'll only have to pay half ^^:

My pen died... in the middle of a three hour exam... and it was full of ink too. Well, it was good that I had the foresight to take out two pens, but it must have been my unlucky day, since just as I was writing the last sentence on a 4 booklet exam, my second pen died on me too. Another pen full of ink >.< I barely had enough ink left to write the period before it totally expired. Today was almost as bad as the time I forgot the room number of my statistic exam, and got lost in the building 5min before exam started.

Well on the bright side, I did some major retail therapy today, totally unplanned too. Had to buy a new lab coat after my nice one mysteriously disappeared (with my name tag on too >.<) Got a really cute aluminum water bottle, dark red with Hello Kitty design at the school bookstore. With all the controversy about BPA and what we learned in medicinal chemistry, it's better to be safe than sorry when it comes to health. Also went to P-Mall, got tons of new movies, although I don't think I'll have time to watch all of them until after exams T_T I really want to see 27 dresses! Hehe also blew $150 at my favorite Japanese pottery store. I guess they just got there summer inventory, and I couldn't stop myself from getting some really pretty fans. They were bloody expensive too, $20 per fan. Seriously if I find that they're made in China, I'm going to have a minor heart attack, but they do make cute gifts. There were some really elegant incense porcelain plates too, got one with a bamboo design and a koi design. Then got some clover dessert bowels ^^; Hum, maybe I'll post some pictures up after exams. I'm so proud of them ^^; Hehe, although now I am completely broke, and I won't have time to work until exams are done.

I was on the subway today, and since it was around 5pm, there were alot of people going home, including a group of super noisy teenagers. At first I was really annoyed by all the loud swearing and stupid conversation (although I'm sure I had my share of stupid conversation when I was that age). After a couple of stations, some of the kids got off, and one of the guys who was left took a seat right across from me. The next thing I knew, he pulled out a Fruits Basket volume from his gym bag and started to read, and I swear I heard giggling. And this guy was pretty tall, muscular, dressed in gangster clothing, accessories and everything, and giggling over Fruits Basket! The shoujo-est of all shoujo manga! Manga is taking over the world, one victim at a time =P

I hate sketchers >.< Not just because of the silly people they choose for the advertisments, but I hate the quality of their products. A couple of weeks ago, I was wearing an old pair of sketchers, for some reason, the rim of the shoe started to rub against the back of my heel bone really painfully. I got a blister from it, but it was no big deal. Went home, delt with the blister and never touched those shoes again.

Somehow though, ever since then, no matter which pairs of shoe/sock combination I wore(and I swear, I went through ever single pair of shoes in my closet), the pain just got worse and worse. It went on for about three weeks, at first I thought it was just a blister, but the skin healed already and there was no bruises or calluses. So on Thursday, I was walking around in a pair of comfy pumas when suddenly my leg muscles cramped up and a sharp pain went from my heel up and around all the way to the knee. Even though I thought it was kind of silly, I still went to see the doctor that afternoon as an 'after hour emergency'. My family doctor is away for 5 months so it was another resident who saw me. She was super nice, but I swear, if she was in my 'patient self-care class' my prof would've failed her for sure. Apparently, according to her, nothing was hurt (not even the skin was broken), but she still put a dressing on my heel to 'heal the skin' -_-;;; Her dressing consisted of three layers of gauze taped down with clear plastic tape. Went against all the 'dressing' rules we studied in class. I knew from the moment I stuffed my feet into my pumas that she just made the problem worse. The thick 'dressing' only increased the rubbing pressue against the area that was causing the problem.

So yeah, to make a long story short. The next day, I had to get up at 6am to catch the bus to go to another city for a 'industry site visit', and I was limping around all day. The second I got back to Toronto, had to run to the mall, look for a pair of open back shoes, and ironically, the only shoe store that sold moderately flattering open back shoes was... yes... Sketchers. I was so pissed, wanted to scream at the sales clerk with the injustice of it all, and still ended up spending $90 on the stupid shoes >.< Yeah, and it made me late for work too.

Okay, sorry end of rant. Work is almost done, so have to run and help out with what's left of the 2008 Uoft Kendo Tournament now ^_^

There's nothing as scary as the computer crashing right when you're saving a finished assignment for the last time- and it just happened to be my lucky day I. I spent two entire weeks completing a six page biochemistry assignment that included scavenger hunting through more than 100 sources from pubmed and other scholarly sources (trust me, it's harder than find gold in a sandbox), and just when I was done putting the finishing touches and saving it for the last time, Microsoft Word froze, crashed, and my entire assignment freaking disappeared! Two whole weeks of hard work, 15% of my entire mark for the semster- gone in a second... and I didn't make a back up considering this never happened before.

God, I was calling my friends and bawling my eyes out, considering that it's due on Tuesday. Along with the interview I have on Monday, a 20% assignment for another analytical class on Thursday, a medicinal chemistry midterm on Thursday, a 4 hour lab and another 5% assignment on Friday, I did not have the time to re-write a whole damn report. So, after crying to my friend, my parents, and even to my cat, I was told togo and seek help with the Geek Squad first time tomorrow morning when BestBuy opens (11am considering it's Easter Sunday), and just pray that the file is just lost somewhere in limbo on my memory stick. And in case that fails- to just suck it and re-write the whole thing.

I wasn't in the state of mind to do anything after, so I decided to just surf the net a little and try to make myself forget the nightmare by reading some fics that I discovered a couple of days ago. I guess, subconsciously, I was still clinging on to a tiny strand of hope, so I plugged in my memory stick, dug around, and guess what I found? My beautiful six page assignment just as I left it, hidden away in a dusty little corner of my memory stick as a weird '~W0384 temp file'. I swear, I've never felt so relieved in my life ^^;

It seems like I have a difficulty in commitment, whether it's writing fanfics or updating journals. In my defense though, school has been hell this semester. Totally different than last year, when a little memorization and a lot of BS can get anyone a passing grade. I used to laugh when my friends tell me how stressful a professional program could be, now I'm the one who's doing the hair pulling and the alnighters. Social life? What social life? Haha, my parents have never seen me studying so much (and hard).

Thank god the year will be over in a month or so. Although this summer is going to be hell, considering I'm probably going to work for six days a week full time. I never realized how difficult it is looking for a job. Ever since I started working as a part time receptionist at the hospital four years ago, I never had to find another part time job since the hours and the money is really good. My cover letter, resume, and interview skills are so rusty, not to mention there's 600 other students in the program also looking for the same jobs. Competition isn't just limited in class apparently. Well I have an interview on Monday, and got I hope everything goes well, I desperately need to make some money considering this year my dad told me I have to pay for my own tuition >.

So not looking forward to this weekend at all. I'm working all day tomorrow, at the pharmacy in the morning and at the hospital at night, it doesn't help that the two places are so far apart. Thank god my dad let's me drive to the pharmacy, or else I'll never make it to my second job on time. *sigh* Then on the weekend, I have to go to a two day 9-5 CPR/First Aid training. It's so stupid though. I won't be able to register for second year without renewing my CPR/First Aid certificate. I know that for a student in the health care field, we're suppose to have it, but they school shouldn't prevent students from enrolling just because of it. Fine, I understand the need since we're all going to start our hospital rotations next semester, so it'll be useful. However, I refuse to believe that when a patient goes down, they'll ignore all the nurses and doctors and page a pharmacist inside a hospital pharmacy to perform CPR >.< Not to mention that it's very hypocritical how a licensed pharmacist is not required to have CPR. Now I wouldn't mind it so much if it was just a couple of hours, but for two whole days?! I remember the first one I went to was only four hours, I can't imagine what they have to teach that will lost for two days, and plus it's $100 >.< I guess I'm just pissed that I can't do it for free at the hospital, since I'm only a part-time clerical staff and not a professional, regardless I'm a pharmacy student XP On top of that, because Sophia has a party to go to on Saturday, I'm forced to take her evening shift from 4pm-11pm  since I'm the only person not scheduled that day. Meaning I won't be able to get home until midnight and still have to get to CPR by 9am the next day.  There better not be any delays or cranky patients, or else I might just end up biting someone's head off.

This is the first time I got food poisoning. Have to say, not a very pleasent experience. I think I've puked more times in these couple of days than I have my entire life. The toliet is officially my new best friend >.< I'm serioulsy considering moving into the washroom for the next couple of days. I think the one good thing about this whole food poisoning thing is that I lost more than four pounds in two days. I lifted my shirt up the other day, and I could even see my abs that were previously hidden by a layer of fat XP Although even I'm getting alarmed at how fast I'm wasting away ^^; Since most of the time I'm just puking up fluid, I'm too scared of eating anything, not that I have an appetite anyways. I force myself to eat one meal a day and don't feel hungry at all. *sigh* but I am getting dehydrated, I was telling my dad how I felt my eyeballs were shrinking too ^^; Of course, he just count it off as too many hours in front of the computer and tv, but it's not like there's anything else I can do at home ^^; Maybe I should take some meds... but I really don't want to ^^; It's really ironic for someone who is studying to become a pharmacist to be so reluctant in taking meds herself. Lol, even my boss said that it would be good to try some meds so I'll have personal experience of what my customers/patients are going through. Just a couple of days before though, the same pharmacist told me that pharmacists in general take the least number of drugs, prescription or overthe counter ^^; It's really quite sad.

I have to say, I've seen some weird crazy people on the subway for quite some time, but the person who sat next to me yesterday...no competition XP At first glance, he looked like a normal guy, well dressed, good taste (that should've been the first warning). So I was reading my newspaper, minding my own business, and then the next thing I knew, he whipped out a compact and started to apply blush VERY obviously (as in doing in a way to make sure everyone noticed). Hehe I have nothing against gay people, god I love my gay friends, and I even write yaoi, but it was just too hilarious when the old woman who sat across from us started to laugh, and then he started to blow kisses and verbally flirt with the men who were too embarrassed to look at him ^^; I have to say, he's the first one I've met who's even worse than my hairdresser (who can put half the gay population to shame)  =P

I had such a good day at work yesterday, for once, we weren't behind schedule and all the patients were nice XP I think that the fact I had a glass of port before work had something to do with my good mood. I was so surprised how strong it was. It's been awhile since I last had port, and I didn't check the alcohol percentage before I picked it up XP 19.5% doesn't sound that bad, but I was drinking it on an empty stomach (it was my breakfast XP) It was yummy... but I think the government should have a warning for 'drinking and working' too XP Hehe and since it's father's day today and we're going out for dinner, more alcohol! Lol, I sound like an alcoholic, my mom was so surpsied by my tolerance when she first saw me drink. For an Asian, I have a super high tolerance, and have a liking for hard liquor, hehe it's a good think that I'm only a social drinker, besides the occasional glass of wine here and there =P

I finally found router that works! Lol, after going throw the same type of frustration three times, I am finally enjoying internet on my laptop again. If I knew it was so easy, I would have ordered a router/modem from Bell right from the beginning, but since my first couple of times dealing with them were horrible, I didn't want to turn to them until necessary. This time eveyrthing was so smooth, the router came in the mail the day after I ordered it, and the set up was so simple, *sigh* to think I could've had my own internet for the past two years instead of fighting with my mom for it ^^; I wish I can turn back the hands of time. 

I dragged my poor cousin shopping with me today. Haha, at least it wasn't clothes shopping, or else he would've killed me. It's been forever since my last trip to P-Mall, hehe updated my dvd collection. I've been waiting to see 300 forever. The first time I saw the commercial, I thought it was the movie version of God of War, even though I know that it's not now, there are still enough similarities to please me ^_^ Now that I'm on vacation, I'm bored out of my mind, almost bought a PS2 since it's so cheap now, but then again, I know my mom wouldn't let me inside the house with it XP Maybe I should start studying Organic Chem in preparetion for my four huge chemistry courses next semester. Lol medicinal chem, here I come!!!!!!!!! -.-;; I need a life.

Wow, it's been so long since my last post. Lol I probably opened three more blogs in other places during that time, and none of them got updated either XP I'm so bad when it comes to blogs I kind of wonder why I'm back again, probably because it's summer and I'm bored out of my mind. I'm taking it so easy this summer, no summer classes and only working three days a week XP At least I'll be well rested by September when those four chemistry courses rolls around. I even broke down and finally joined Facebook, I hope that my laziness will prevent any addition that will develop with that site ^^; I've heard of all kinds of horror stories from Facebook people about how they stay up all night just to see what people post on their walls.

Stupid cross sectional anatomy test! I hate it I hate it I hate it! And I hate Sue, she's the worst teacher possible... that is when she's teaching. What the freak is with this tuturorial? This is one of the hardest courses I've ever taken and we're suppose to learn it on our own?! Even Organic 2 with Lysys was better than this. After memorizing for an entire day, my brain is about to explode.

I wonder how some people do it. Leaving everything to the last minute and still get a decent mark *cough* Jon *cough*. I think I really pissed him off today when I said that he should start studying. And I don't know why but I'm really in a bad mood now since he's angry. Why should I let this affect me?! Why?! We aren't even going out yet. I sort of wish we are though, so I can get my life sorted out.

Yesterday scared me a little. When I came to class, I moved from my usual seat to sit next to my friend Andrea, and before I sat down, Henry (the 2nd guy who likes me) moved from where he was ALREADY seated to sit next to me. I wasn't the only person who was surprised. But man how can I not notice him now?! I hate to break it to the guy since he's so nice and everything but I just don't like him in that way. Andrea even thought he was gay ^^;;

Yeah, so Kristine my roommate left. She left me T_T Evil girl, and Mark the immature little 31 years-old had to open his big mouth and say something like "Kristine left because she didn't like you." Man, I just wanted to bitch slap him, where does he come up with these stupid comments? It's been more than 2 months now, can't he take the hint that I don't like him, and the more he tries to get my attention the more I'll hate him? Why are guys so dense? I was so tempted to tell him that Julian is going to be my new roommate for the next few weeks. I still haven't told Jon yet, but since he's the cause that I'm so angry and depressed, I'll let him have a little surprise tomorrow. I don't know, people think I'm evil, maybe I am, but it's a cruel world.

Yeap this is my first entry. I have no idea what to write, so I'll just blab I guess. Something my friends tell me that I'm very good in doing.

I'm so tired today! And yeah, wasted another day doing nothing. Well except for when I called Jo. I miss you so much ^_^ It's the first time I've talked to her in a long time and it's so nice hearing her voice again. I can't wait till Feburary when I can go back to Montreal to visite. It's incredible how much we change and the things around us change. I mean, if someone told me that I would be having guy problems six months ago I probably would've laughed my head off -_-;; But now, here I am, wondering my Jon haven't done anything, and wondering if I'm the one who's not giving enough hints that I'm interested. Man! Aren't guys suppose to be transparent in what they want?! Why are they so difficult?!?!?! Why?!?!

Yeah, my parents are in China right now. I got up early to call them, but it turned out that my mom forgot to give me the country's area code, so I spent 45 minutes calling relatives to see if they have my grandparents's phone number. It turned out that no one could help me and I had to search on the internet myself >.<

My parents arrived safely. My mom saw her 'old lover' when she was transferring planes. He's the big movie director who is scared of his wife/boss. It's funny how she described him. Apparently he's got a big belly now O.o

Seems like my little cousin grew incredibly. The shoes that my parents bought for him doesn't fit at all. We got him size 8 and he wears size 9. Stupid boys, always growing so fast. But I have to say, I'm very curious to see how they turned out. Can't wait till May when I'll go back to China for the first time in 11 years!

In the mean time, will someone please go with me to the Chinese New Year Festival here in Toronto?!